Help

This year is not going so hot.  Heard some news tonight that made me incredibly discouraged.  I found out that I don't get another restaurant.  I was trying to put one in the new multiplex and read in the paper that someone else got it.

I needed this.  No, let me rephrase this.  I wanted this.  I wanted this as a confirmation that we were supposed to lose our jobs and that this was what we were supposed to do.  That this was going to be good year.  I am so frustrated. 

Husband is so grumpy right now.  He is not working and is spending a lot of time bored.  He is watching a lot of tv and playing a lot of video games and playing with his helicopters.  He will not help around the house, is only working a few shifts a week at the store and is really mean to me! He is just grumpy and taking it out on me right now and I am finding it really hard.  I can't take it this time.

I don't know what to do and to top it all off, I am sick again.  Definatly the stress and I know that, but it is annoying.  I came home from work early today because I could not stop puking and then headed to the health food store to find some good stuff to make my immune system stronger.  I am now taking a lot of pills!

I need to be healthy.  I want to know what Husband is going to do for work this year so I can start breathing again.  I need to be healthy!!!!!

I hate being sick.  Can you tell? So, tonight, I sent the Husband to work and am sitting on the couch watching tv and trying to keep myself awake until at least 8 pm.  If I go to bed too early, I will just wake up in the middle of the night and not be able to fall back asleep.

Please pray for me.  Pray for patience and health and sleep and answers.  I am feeling incredibly discouraged right now and do not want to sink into this depression again.  I have been doing so good!

I need to get healthy, clean my house, do some bookkeeping and just really concentrate on my mental and physical health.

Yes.  This is what I need to do.

Soon.