Today

I did it!


I actually did all 30 days! That was actually kind of fun.


So for something totally different, I am going to post something that was given to me a long time ago.


I was reading this the other day and thought....wow.  More people need to have access to this. So here goes!

A Bill of Assertive Rights

1. You have the right to judge your own behavior, thoughts, and emotions, and to take the responsibility for their initiation and consequences upon yourself.
2. You have the right to offer no reasons or excuses for justifying your behavior.
3. You have the right to judge if you are responsible for finding solutions to other people's problems.
4. You have the right to change your mind.
5. You have the right to make mistakes-and to be responsible for them.
6. You have the right to say "I don't know".
7. You have the right to be independent of the goodwill of others before coping with them.
8. You have the right to be illogical in making decisions.
9. You have the right to say, "I don't understand".
10. You have the right to say, "I don't care".

YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY NO, WITHOUT FEELING GUILTY!

Can you imagine what life would be like if we actually did these things? I was in counselling at the time (yes, I have paid a ridiculous amount of money to Physciatrists in the past to help me deal with my life and am proud of it!) and she gave me this.  I was dealing with boundaries, or the lack of them, and with the guilt of saying no or yes or I don't know and this helped a lot.  It is true! We need to take ownership of our mistakes but not others.  We have a right to judge but only if it is our responsibility. WOW.  Think of that one for a minute.  How about number 5? How many times have I felt so incredibly guilty for a mistake I made?

I have this hanging in my office and look at it often.  If you want it? PRINT IT OFF! 

Can I just say, my personal favorite is #10? Love it.

Day 30

Day thirty: A picture of someone you miss

My mom

My mom and dad

My mom and her sisters did dorky songs at everyones weddings

These were taken on December 29th.  She died on January 8th,2008.  This was the last time I saw her.








I miss her.

Day 29

Day twenty-nine: A picture that can always make you smile.

This is Paige.

She is the coolest dog on the planet.  A toy fox terrier that can make me smile in any mood.  Do you not want to smile looking at this????

Day 28

Day twenty-eight: A picture of something you’re afraid of.









I hate snakes.  I am incredibly terrified.  I freeze when I see them.  I can't even look while typing this.  I have it covered! YUC.




On a more personal level, I am afraid of being alone.









"deviantart.com through google images" 


I have had a lot of fear in my life regarding this.


Having Husband who keeps trying to die on me, and losing my mother has not helped.  Lately, I have been working really hard at surrounding myself with a support system in case this ever happens.  At the end of the day, I know that I am not alone.  I know that God is there with me, but the physical loneliness scares the hell out of me.

Day 27

Day twenty-seven: A picture of yourself and a family member




Again, I am going to break the rules!




Here is a picture of my entire family (give or take a few)

I love these people.  Can you pick out the blood relatives in here? Kinda easy I think.  This is my moms family.  They are amazing and I love them so much.




Amazing.  I am so lucky...

Day 26

Day twenty-six: A picture of something that means a lot to you.




I'm BACK!!!! Husband keep harassing me.

I am unsure of what words to use to describe how much this little book means to me.


When my mom passed away a few years ago, I was upset at all the little things I did not know.  Soon after, I was in the christian bookstore and saw this book.  Wow.  I was so unsure she would do it.  I gave it to my grandma three years ago asking her to fill out what she could and just left it at that.  To my surprise, she filled out the whole thing! Every single page! I was amazed.  I was waiting to post this until I had it home and had read it.  I finished this morning.  It is amazing.  Her favorite foods, why she named her kids what she did, memories of her wedding, goals she would have liked to have done.....amazing.


I learned more about my grandma in one sitting than I have in my entire life.


This item means a lot to me.  I was not sure she would ever do it.  I have seen bits and pieces of it over the last few years but it is done! If anyone out there that knows me, wants to read it? Let me know.  I am thinking of scanning the whole thing so that I have a digital copy as well.  Then I can pass it on to family.  I am sure that a lot of people would love it.


Have I mentioned that she is 80?


You can also get "The parents legacy".


Any parents out there? YOU SHOULD GET THEM!!!!!!

Oops

I am back.

I was waiting on a specific item to be picked up in order for my next post to happen.


Oh, and I was out of town and had no photos with me or high speed internet!



I am back again and will continue my 30 days soon.




Have to get some stuff done first.




See you soon!

Day 25

Day twenty-five: A picture of my day. (written a few days ago when my day was a little more interesting)




My day:


I will add a photo at the end of this, but for now will give you a play by play in the life of me.
I will use today as an example.




Morning comes.


8 am             wake up
8:30 am       have breakfast ( if we don't hit snooze for too long!)
9 am            head to the office.  Upstairs in our house.  A hole 30 second walk.  
9-9:05 am   check emails
9:05 am       leave for a meeting across town.  At meeting discuss transfer of company to a new supplier, work on final details for that, discuss paper and plastics, look at samples of forks and containers and paper towel dispensers (as well as a few other things).  Ask for more samples of some food items we are wanting to change.  I see a lot of meatballs in our future.  Find out when the next food show is.  Tell them to have a good day and leave.
11:30 am     head for home
12 noon       we are home, time for lunch (leftover cannelloni pasta bake and baked potato soup)
12:30 pm     Head up to the office again.  Such a long commute :)
12:30-3:30 pm     Spend time answering emails, making phone calls, dealing with business matters, thinking of what to pack for our road trip and skyping with people.  Also a little time on the blog and a little time on facebook.  
3:30 pm       Time to pack!
4 pm            Packing is done.  Time to do a tidy of the house and think about dinner.  I have cramps, so I think we are going for burgers.  Grease helps.  Fatburger! Here we come!
5 pm           Husband had to go to the bank, get the mail, drop off supplies at a store, pick up a few things for road trip, and fuel up the car.  I am waiting for him so we can continue our evening and get dinner
6 pm          Everything is packed and ready to go  Leaving for dinner now
7 pm          Going to sit on my fanny and watch some tv before and early night in bed.  Not feeling too good.  Bad cramps.  Time for sleep.
9 pm          In bed.  Reading a book.  Need to sleep soon.
11 pm        Goodnight world.






This was an odd day for us.  We usually spend more time in meetings or in the office and we don't do the packing thing.  But yeah! This is the kind of day I had.

My desk

My happy board with pictures that make me smile!

Sitting in my chair writing on my blog.

the other half of my office

Day 24

Day twenty-four: A picture of something you wish you could change.





I wish I could have had kids.  I love kids.  But you know what? I am playing the game with the cards that were dealt to me.  I am playing the game and not cheating.  I am playing the game and having fun doing it.


I will be ok.  I vow to be the bestest auntie in the entire world! To spoil them rotten and to love them to death.  I promise to take care of them and always have an ear, shoulder or arms to protect and give to them (maybe the arms to just hug them.  I need them!).  I promise to always be there for them.

Day 23

Day twenty-three: A picture of my favorite book

I own thousands, and I mean thousands of books.  You have no idea.

I can't choose.  I will read anything and everything.

I will even lend them out!

I have more books than some libraries.

Love them

So much

SOOOOOOOO Much.

Day 22

Day twenty-two: A picture of something you wish you were better at.




Wow.  Just one picture? I have a few things that I know I am pretty good at, but one day when I am semi retired, I would love to go back to school for a few things.



They are:

Photography

Floral design




Cooking classes.  I would like to be a certified professional chef



These are on my bucket list.  One day I will do them.  I have had a taste of all of them (some literally) and I can't wait to pursue them more!

Just think, one day you can come and visit and I will make you an incredible meal that you will eat at a table with the most incredible floral centerpiece and I will photograph you all happy and relaxed after! (helping me do dishes!)

Day 21

Day twenty-one: A picture of something you wish you can forget



I wish that I could forget a lot of things but high school is one of them.

I hated high school.

The clicks

The people

Some teachers

They were hard years for me.  I had a lot of personal and health issues that made them not exactly enjoyable.

I do love some of the friendships that I still have though.  There are not that many, and they were all restarted WAAAAAYYYYYY after high school was done, but I do love them.

And I did meet Husband there :)

Day 20

Day twenty: A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

I want to go to New York.  I want to go shopping, go to broadway, eat amazing meals, walk in central park.  I want to go skating at Christmas and drink hot chocolate while wandering around looking at window displays before hopping on a sleigh ride through the park.  I want to go in summer and see all the greenery.


I just want to go to New York.

Day 19

Day nineteen: A picture of when you were little




Seriously people? All my photo albums are still packed!


I found a few though.  They are all close to the same age, but really? Was I not the cutest baby......EVAR!!!!!!!!!!!

 Check out that attitude! I love this picture.

 I love how stylish I am.  And the hair! Wow.  This is my kindergarten picture.

 This picture makes me laugh.  This was my outfit for a Christmas play at church.  I was 5.  I SOOOOO don't look very angelic.

 The original cabbage patch doll.  Notice the matching pajamas? My mom also got us the beds and blankets.  These are all still around somewhere.  Jill, do you have them?

Very first day of school.  Again.  The clothes blow my ming.  A blue coat and toque, the ugliest pink sweater and pants, and the pale pink boots? What was I thinking???

So there you have it.  Pictures of me as a kid.  All taken somewhere around the age of 4-6.  Maybe one day when the photo albums get unpacked, I will post a baby picture.  I was so freakin' cute.  All eyes and white blond hair.

Day 18

Day eighteen: A picture of your biggest insecurity.




I would love to say that I have no insecurities.


This would be a lie.  I am a  child of God and am trying to love myself for who I am, but I have some huge ones.

• My weight
• My laziness
• My lack of self confidence

These are the three biggest.

I am working on them though.  I didn't even turn on the tv yesterday! Do you know how big of a deal that is to me? The books from the previous post are also awesome.  They are starting to make me think.  I want his confidence.

So here is a pic.

It has nothing to do with this post.  This is my crazy toque.  I love it and it makes me happy.  You can unwind the ears and have long hair or do tons of crazy things.  Pretty sexy pic, eh?