Tired.

What should I do this weekend? I am not sure.  I am so tired tonight.  I worked from 10-5 at the restaurant and then I got a phone call at 7 asking me to come back so I worked til 9:30.  Tired.  Sore.  Sick of doing dishes.  I am not sure why.  I wil figure it out. 

I have two days off and need to spend them doing books for the business and going through dads mail and all his bills, but I just want to sleep and read and make some cool meals and watch tv and things like that. 

I am doing good though right now.  I am keeping myself really happy and spending a lot of time really paying attention to what I am feeling for a change.  Not just thinking....wow.  I am sad. But actually figuring out why and doing something about it.

Good news! Husband and I have decided to go on a mini vacation.  We are heading to Edmonton in a few weeks.  We are going to just hang out and enjoy ourselves.  We will visit a few friends but really we are just wanting to get away.  I am not sure when we are going.  Soon I hope! I am thinking at some point this month.

Things at the restaurant are going really good right now and my assistant manager is back in a week.  I can't wait.  I want weekends again.  It has been too long since I had those.  I would love to take a day off in the middle of the week to do the shopping and bookkeeping for the store instead of trying to fit it all in in the middle of the week or evenings or on Saturday.  Soon!!!!! I think that the first week, I will take two days off! Good thing today? I made over $50 in tips.  It rocked!

This is a funny post.  I just needed to post.  Haven't in a few days and needed to.

I think that I am going to go to bed soon.  The boys are outside my room right now playing xbox and they are incredibly loud.  I will probably go read until they are done.  Should be soon.

I was going to write something and now I forget.  Hmmmmmmmm........

Oh yeah! Husband and I started going to a new small group this week.  It is four couples and a single guy.  Not all of us know each other and it is nice.  We are going to be a good group I think.  We all want to learn and are all willing to talk and ask questions and it is nice.  No one there is fake and we are all close to the same level.  Not all newbies and not all long term full of knowledge people.  It is nice.  We all fit really nice.  I am really looking forward to it.  I can't wait for next time.  Right now? We are doing it once every two weeks.  That is hard.  I wish it was every week! We are studying Hebrews.  Very interesting book!

Ok.  That was what I was thinking of.  Off to bed for this tired chick.

Later guys!

Vegetarianism....

Is that even a word? I am not so sure :)

Need help you guys.  I am trying to eat a vegetarian diet for the next month.  I have done it for one week now and it is going good but I need some help.  Do you have a favorite recipe? Meat free? Do you know of any good sites? I do not like tofu but will eat anything else.  Husband thinks I am nuts but I am actually feeling really good this week.  Not as full or puffy as usual.  This does not mean that I am cutting out meat forever, I am just trying something for a month to see what happens.  I am curious what my body will feel like if I do this for a month.  I remember a long time ago, my mom telling me that due to my blood type, I should not eat meat.  We will see!

So, if you could post your recipes? That would rock!!!!!

I need some inspiration right now.

Food....

Yummiest thing in the world........

Thin pancakes

Nutella

Sliced Strawberries

Sliced Bananas

A big glass of milk.

Try it.  I promise you will be happy.

Made by Husband? Even better.

Flowers on your plate? Priceless.


Love him :)

Feeling a little more chipper tonight.

Want roasted chicken and sweet potatoe fries.  Might actually have to cook tomorrow night.

Still quite sick.

Need to get better.

Should be sleeping.

Soon.

A picture for you today.........

This is me.  A year ago.  In Vegas.  It was a good day.  I am working on being good again.  I have the skills.  I have the abilities.  I know now what it feels like.

On my way back.....

Help

This year is not going so hot.  Heard some news tonight that made me incredibly discouraged.  I found out that I don't get another restaurant.  I was trying to put one in the new multiplex and read in the paper that someone else got it.

I needed this.  No, let me rephrase this.  I wanted this.  I wanted this as a confirmation that we were supposed to lose our jobs and that this was what we were supposed to do.  That this was going to be good year.  I am so frustrated. 

Husband is so grumpy right now.  He is not working and is spending a lot of time bored.  He is watching a lot of tv and playing a lot of video games and playing with his helicopters.  He will not help around the house, is only working a few shifts a week at the store and is really mean to me! He is just grumpy and taking it out on me right now and I am finding it really hard.  I can't take it this time.

I don't know what to do and to top it all off, I am sick again.  Definatly the stress and I know that, but it is annoying.  I came home from work early today because I could not stop puking and then headed to the health food store to find some good stuff to make my immune system stronger.  I am now taking a lot of pills!

I need to be healthy.  I want to know what Husband is going to do for work this year so I can start breathing again.  I need to be healthy!!!!!

I hate being sick.  Can you tell? So, tonight, I sent the Husband to work and am sitting on the couch watching tv and trying to keep myself awake until at least 8 pm.  If I go to bed too early, I will just wake up in the middle of the night and not be able to fall back asleep.

Please pray for me.  Pray for patience and health and sleep and answers.  I am feeling incredibly discouraged right now and do not want to sink into this depression again.  I have been doing so good!

I need to get healthy, clean my house, do some bookkeeping and just really concentrate on my mental and physical health.

Yes.  This is what I need to do.

Soon.

• Made lasagne last night for dinner.  I make amazing lasagne.  Husband told me that he is becoming a lasagne snob.
• Played the board game "Pandemic" too many times this weekend.  Hopefully get to play it again tonight ;)
• Finally went through all the bedding/pillows/sheets in our house.  Threw a lot of it out.  Kept some, bleached some and spent some time organizing it all.
• Spent an amazing afternoon with Husband  ;)
• Am watching Glee and enjoying it.  It is so corny but hilarious and I love all the music.
• Have to work all week.  Shorter shifts than last week though and that is nice as I have a lot of bookkeeping and other stuff to do.
• Feeling okay today.  I am still a little rusty after being sick for so long.  I am just not completely back yet.
• Husband is obsessed with his helicopters and planes right now.  He is in the shop as we speak building his second one.  His first one is amazing.  I will post a picture one day.
• Found a blog counter.  It is cool now to see if people are actually reading this thing.
• Spend a wonderful weekend with the Husband. 
• Wanting to see some movies in the theater.  I think that I might go a few nights this week.  We will see!

I think that those are enough random things for today.  Sorry for not posting more often! I will soon now that my life is slowing down!

Good days.

What a change.  I do not remember the last time that I worked regular set hours.  It is nuts!

I hate it! No.  I should tell the truth.  I am tired.  I am exhausted and it feels good.  I am sleeping good and actually enjoying all my time there. 

I think that it will be good.

Tonight was good.  Husband and I went on a date.  To a new restaurant in town that was romantic and secluded and it was awesome.  We just sat and visited and enjoyed some good food.  We then came home and just relaxed.  It was nice.  I don't remember when our last date was.  It was so nice.  I think that I am going to make this a weekly thing.  Or at least bi-weekly. 

Wanna hear something stupid? Husband got a small cheque from our previous boss, about 1/25th of what he owed us but it was at least something to help us pay our bills.  Yup.  Tried to deposit it.  Dated for March.  Seriously? Are you kidding me? This is insane.  What a jerk.  I am going to the labor board this week.  This is insane.  We are doing okay with it all though.  Husband is slowly coming out of his funk.

So, at the end of this month, beginning of next, we are supposed to get some really big news.  It is cool news.  I will tell you more later when I know some answers.  We were talking last night that we should probably celebrate.  So, what should we do? Should we throw a party? Should we go away for a weekend away? Should we just say YEAH and do nothing? It is big.  Really big.  No.  It is not kids or anything.  But it is big for us and our family.

Wow.  This could be the most random blog post ever.  Oh well.  I don't mind.

Time for bed.  I am exhausted today and have to work again tomorow morning :) Extra early morning.  Order comes tomorrow so it will take more time to get everything done. 

Later!