Now she has been gone for almost 4 years and Dad is dating. He has had one serious girlfriend that did not end well (good riddance!) and another one of 5 dates that just fizzled out. That one he did not even tell us about.
He has now been talking on the phone to a lady for the last 6 months. He is visiting her right now to see if there is anything there. She is actually one of my moms cousins. Figure that out!
He will be at my house with her tonight. Yup. I get to "meet" her. Not in a "hey! There is yet another relative and I forget your name?!?" way but "hey! You might be dating my dad in the future or you already are (he is talking to her about it tomorrow on the 6 hour drive here) and you could potentially end up in my life in a major way.
I am kinda nervous.
I want my dad to be happy. I want him to find love again. I want him to find even more than he had before and that is not in a bad way, just a good thing. I want him to grow old with someone by his side. And to tell you the truth? I would not mind a mother figure in my life again. I want my nieces and nephews to have a grandma. I want him to be happy.
Why am I so nervous?
I feel kinda selfish to be honest. I have a very peculiar relationship with my dad. We are very close and I love it. I talk to him every day at least once and if there is something wrong? He is the one I phone. I am worried that our relationship will change. What if it changes for the worse? What if he completely falls in love and forgets us? I know that this is all irrational, but what if?
|My dad and his toy. Isn't he cute?|